My office door is always closed and locked, remnants of a day when an angry man stood over me and yelled words filled with hurt, anger, and frustration, flinging his arms out as if to grab me and shake the understanding into me.
“Why are my dreams so vivid?” they ask me.
“Why does it still feel like I’m there, fighting all over again, when it happened so many years ago?”
“Why am I still here?”
The brain never forgets, unless the insult is so severe that the parenchyma itself is damaged then dies off, or if we don’t feed it the oxygen it needs. Hypoxia we call it, but those memories don’t just need oxygen. They need light in all its forms. The soft rays of sunlight that come in the early dawn of a dreamless night. The probing surgical intensity that exposes every forgotten detail of curved hair on bloodied arms. The…
View original post 658 more words